The Waiting Game

It is April 2nd... On March 1st of this year I officially submitted my application to go back to school and get my teaching credential. They said I will hear back by May 17th. What? That is forever away and I am not even half way there. It is an interesting situation, I want to be a teacher and I like to think I will be a good one. I love working with kids and hearing their ideas and watching them create things and explore the world. I think they are crazy and funny and full of energy and that is what I love to be around. Even though I know this is something I want to do and something I would be good at, I AM SO SCARED. I am scared that I won't get in, I am scared that the kids won't like me, I am scared about the stress of my own classes on top of student teaching will completely overwhelm me, I am scared that I will take out that stress on the people I love, and most of all I am scared that I will not succeed. But I know I have to try and I want to try and thankfully I have amazing friends and family to support me, but everyday I wonder when I will find out, and what the answer will be. I have decided I will be okay, and that it is okay for me to be scared because whether I get in or not, I am ready for my next adventure to begin and I want to kick ass at whatever it may be.